I was talking to my daughter before Christmas and it turns out that she and I wanted the same thing. We both wanted a microscope. The reason I wanted mine  to check on putting dandruff under a microscope to see why does it in bed and breed so fast? It is almost as if the roots never dies. This is something that runs in my family. My mother always had this problem. I saw somewhere on the internet where this could be a sign of cancer. It's hard to believe, but my mother had cancer for almost 20 years. How do I know this? Because we live in a small city where there was no hospitals. My sister took my mom to the city for diagnosis 20 years before she died. And she was diagnosed of having cancer, 20 years later. This is why I keep my mind open to things that's not conventional. My mom Always at dandruff. There Was no head and shoulder available in those days. If I could do it all over again  There are so many things that I'm interested in.  I think I would have love to have been a scientist. If some of the people that have known me all my life would hear me say this, they would called the police. How can I say this? I have never had any love for math.  I found something to research the other day form one of my teachers who just died. Her name was Clara Luper from Oklahoma City. She hated my guts. Now I know that she's so how much on my time that I wasted . I understand why. Believe it or not, I was a very smart child and I knew it... I am not going to be modest.

 

I would love to put a danduff flake under a microscope to see if it has life. The reason I want to do this is my curiosity of how fast it re-appear in my skull. I never asked my daughter why she wanted a microscope? I suppose this might be why I have accepted death because I have dealt with the possibility of having her genes. Two family members  were ill for years. I have heard that many people read the Bible during these times. That would not have work for me. From all of my personal research, I am not a religious person. My mind is open to all outside. However, with my bizarre logic, I have noticed that Jesus and the system of slavery entered the stage during the same centuries. My oldest son died as a diabetic. I knew I had to prepare myself for this. I was aware of my way enough to know that I was not ready to see one of my children in a coffin. After that experience they are very few funerals that I have gone to since. I did not attend my mother or father's funeral.  I had a brother that was younger than me who went overseas and fought in the Vietnam war. He was the first person to die with gunshot wounds in the back by the Los Angeles police during the 1965 riot. There is a book that I use that is called Beyond and Back. It has many stories in it concerning people around the world who said they experience reincarnation. The stories were basically the same.  After thinking about what I have gone through in the experience with death from my family, I think it changed me. 

According to the author of Beyond and Back, There are supposed to be five stages for people who are experiencing terminal illness. My son was a good example of this. It seems as if he went through all five.The last one is acceptance. This has been  years ago. I have gotten over deaths. However, this does not mean that I'm ready to drop dead. I am only saying that I now have fully seen all five stages of death preparations through other people.The last funeral I went to was over 50 years ago. I lived in such a small town that I think that I was traumatized by the many funerals I went to as a child. I think the people there looked at death as some kind of entertainment. Even at this late date in my life I think I'm traumatized a little when I see those things that they put the coffin on fold up. I think I better stick to my real love. I love politics and I love to write and debate. I'm having such a hard time trying to stay away from commenting on things that I see and read about lately. It is not working. I promise myself I was stay away from politics until after the 2024 election. With all the things going on with me, circumstances made this impossible. There are so many things that the candidates do that I want to write about, but I try not to target individuals. Let me correct that. I am not going to stand by and allow three people to determine who should be the president of this country. The last election infuriated me. The Democrats decided who they wanted to represent us all. Then there was Donald Trump. There was once a time in the world of people who always talked about experience candidates. I certainly hope they will change their minds. I bet most of you don't believe me , but if someone would give me the job as the world leader, I would turn it down for my continuation of my kind of freedom and happiness. By no means am I happy With what's going on in the World. I am really afraid for America. I am frightened because It looks as if our leaders don't know what's going on. I am afraid that for too many years the white privilege promise the middle class more than they are going to be able to deliver. I am afraid, because America refuses to face reality in many areas. I listen to a lot of lectures from the top Economists In America. these are the few people that I agree with. I have noticed for many years one thing I noticed about the old American economist they cannot include Africa in the reality of how important the future is forced to include this continent. Americans does not want anyone to tell them this truth unless the person happened to have white skin. I certainly do not qualify. People like John Mearshemier, talk show host Richard wolff, Glenn Beck, and many others thinks that this economy Is in big trouble.  But they still cannot consider the possibility of Africa being a world leader . These people are allowed to become billionaires for saying the same thing that I could die for. Remember how angry the American people  became when Dr. King started complaining against the Vietnam war? This is a typical example of the arrogant Americans and the white privilege entitlements. I'm thinking that they believe that groups of people should be treated like chattel and children.

I had an epiphany that boosted a great concern for this country. I am thinking that America is broke. I noticed that they're trying to reinstate another round of shots for a covid-19. Unfortunately, in this country, people have a bad habit of never facing a mirror. For the last past 400 years and more, I believe that many people with white skin believe that they were entitled to the protection of a policeman fot each of them.  What piss me off is that I think I'm paying for it . What make me so angry is I think that money that I have earned from an investment with HUD, is paying for this . I should have received earnings from line of credit that I chose that offered certain benefits. When I bought and paid cash for a home, HUD decided that they were going to divide my earnings between six different loan servicers. I am not an attorney but at a glance you can see fraud in my contract in comparison to others. The government and I both agree on the fact that I have money that should be available to me up on any request as long as I don't exceed the net principal. I have never done that. The strange thing about my case is after 33 years of supposedly having these different loan services that I am supposed to owe each one of them, the balance grows on non-existenting debt.

Today is September the 25th 19 and 24. I am learning from experience that it paid to date everything. I am doing this with the hope that I can become more organized. Also, I have come across Old clippings of my if I just put the date without putting the year. This was very confusing. Consequently I have no answer as to whether I'm plagiarizing or not. One thing for sure this year is going so very fast. For the first time in many years it does not matter to me what day it is. This is my definition of freedom. I hope the rest of you live as long as I am now so you can understand the complications of old age. I never thought I would live to be as old as I am. In most cases my mind is better than it was when I was young. I think it's because I have been forced to slow down. Whatever it is I'm happy for it. I once had a friend who is deceased now that would always tell me slow down and smell the roses. I never said this to her but I always used to think when she would tell me that I would think why not speed up and catch up with me. She was such a sweet person and I loved her very much. All of my friends were, and are very nice people. There are very few women that I enjoy talking to she was one. This is why I prefer being around men. All of my male good buddies talk about politics. They lose me when they start talking about sports. I have zero interest in anything concerning any matter that does not produce anything. I like to grow. There is nothing about sports that makes me grow.

Perhaps this is why I have always loved to travel. I learned so much. I want to look over every mountain, under every rock, and around every corner before I drop dead. The two main reasons that I love to travel is based on food and shopping. I have found that there is so much outside of the United States that we will never get to see because it would upset our capitalist economy. Some of the things that I have seen in other countries are so much more superior than what I am did believe from Americans. This also include technology. This is what I found with the children in Africa they are little geniuses. I hope one day I will be able to invest with them from the school and the P2P. When I am not traveling I am home on the computer. I learned so very much. Who need to go to college when you doing in your have all the knowledge you need from just under our noses. I think that's why I am against the AI technology where we spend so much money in advancing AI rather than  investing in people in this country. I am thinking that this kind of greed is going to be the system that destroys the American economy. I would be very disappointed in this. My dreams are to take all of my earnings 

And consider how much do I want to leave to the world. I have been riding for over 33 years and publishing on the internet from the beginning to now I have always wanted to be a professional writer and my goal at that time was a debate with the late Rush *Limburgh. I often think about the fact that he wrote seven books during his lifetime and was worth more than 6 billion dollars. I realize he was a TV host and had his own show. However, I have written over a hundred books starting from the day that I complained of how ignorant that American had designed The system to make sure that youngsters from my time could never compete with white children. I am 91 years old so that was doing years before the civil rights movement. I grew up in Oklahoma where most of the children live in small towns had very poor education. The only way that a black child in Oklahoma could have a decent education western gold to school from Tulsa Oklahoma or Oklahoma City. And both cases they had one high school in each city where all the black kids went.  White privilege was always in place to make sure that a little money as possible was spent on educating black kids in Oklahoma. 

I remember when my oldest sister graduated from the 9th grade she had to go to Perry Oklahoma in order to attend a high school. In spite of the fact that when I started to high school there was three schools for white children all brick I won't try to describe the mosquito i interested then that I went. 

It was later rumored that the principal where I went to school burned down the school house. Consequently I ended up going to school in the army building until they rebuild something that is now a veterinarian building for animals.

Sometime I reflect on my childhood and it's amazing how well organized racism is in America. All these horrible things happen to us as children and we were taught to be too isn't to know it. The greatest weapon that's used against any human being is ignorance. The United States could all their energy to make sure that this weapon was in place throughout this country. I have often heard people think that if you were black and lived in California or other parts of the United States you are better off than blacks in others states. Fortunately, for me I have lived all over the United States. My husband was an airman in communication. This calls us to be on the move from state to state. If I am correct, there are only 11 states that I have not been to in America. My member is not as good as used to be I think this is correct. Let me share an experience I had in Glen ferry Idaho. I had no idea that this state was so racist. I was a typical indoctrinated African American. Somehow I felt that there was a better place somewhere in this country for me. It has almost taken me The entire 91 years of my life to really bring everything together. I say that with skepticism. Everything time I think I have seen it all so many other things coming to play. I could write a book a day on some of the experience of racism I've had in this country. 

I have always love being an entrepreneur and a strategist. There are records to support the many different directions that I have experienced. The one good thing about all  this is that I believe that this has been the best thing that could have happened to me. It made me know myself better. One thing for sure it made me understand how much I love being a writer. I could never say enough about my appreciation with an internet. I have sit and watched many and so how the American Media have tried to present the late Steve Jobs as the face fór the internet. Before African born Philip E 

Meaghwelli open up the internet highway, everything was in house.

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